Well i had a rough day today. I let my emotions get the best of me and I emtionaly ate again. I have got to figure out a way to not get so upset about things. My pregnancy hormones are going crazy right now I guess. I just feel like everything is so overwhelming and I just don’t know how to deal with it. Being a new teacher is extremely stressful and on top of that I’m pregnant with my first child which I got pregnant with after a miscarriage. So I’m constantly worried about losing her. It just feels like too much to take sometimes so I deal with it like I always have with food. Me and my husband had taco bell and I did feel a little better afterwards. It is definitely no way to deal with emotions. My next doctors appointment is in 3 days. I’m hoping my weight doesn’t go up too much. I don’t want him to get on to me about how much I’ve gained again.
Tomorrow I have to do better. I know i can I just have to make myself.
Today was a long day. Me and my husband drove 4 hours to see his friend get married. Travis drove all the way there and I just slept what a good husband. By the time we got to the town the wedding was in I had to hurry and get ready. I literally got in the car this morning in what I slept in.it was a beautiful wedding. I cried a little even though I barely know his friend and wife . It motivates to stay on track so me and my husband can renew our vows when I get to my goal weight. I felt good today. I’ll post pictures from today at the bottom. I haven’t worn a dress in a long time because I hate the way I look in them. I know I probably still looked gross but I was super confident!
I ended up cheating even though I said I wouldnt. I just wanted to enjoy myself. We ate at the wedding and then got fast food on the way back to the hotel. I’m kind of disappointed because I was at my lowest the last time I weighed myself. I just have to get back on track tomorrow! I’m not cheating for the rest of the summer no excuses!
We got to paint our initials on one of the cars at the Cadillac Ranch in Amarillo Texas!
Well I did not post anything yesterday because it was my college graduation day! I was extremely busy. It’s such a big accomplishment for me and I was so happy that I was able to get to my goal before yesterday. I will post some pictures at the bottom of this blog!
I didn’t track what I ate yesterday. My mom took me out to lunch and I had some bread and a piece of cheesecake. Then for dinner it was already 11pm before we got home so we just grabbed a burger. Even though it’s off the diet I feel like I was able to enjoy this important day and not have to worry about my diet.
I really didn’t eat much today.
I skipped breakfast.
For lunch I had two bumblebee tuna tins. They were lemon pepper flavor. I also had a turkey, Bacon, hard boiled egg salad with blue cheese. 5g carbs.
For dinner my dad is taking my whole family to Texas roadhouse. I am going after I post this. I plan on having a steak and mashed potatoes. Maybe one or two rolls.
I had to get hydrated today. I hardly drank any water yesterday and I was in the sun and cap and gown. So I was sweating and hot. Today I tried to drink a little more water than usual. I drank a little over 120oz.
Tomorrow I will get back on track. It’s been a nice couple of days eating whatever I want but now it’s time to get back on track to being 50lbs down by July 1st!
Here are a few pictures from my graduation!
It’s weird waking up and having nothing to do. I didn’t have to go observe. I didn’t have to be anywhere. All I had to do today was studying for finals next week and that was it. I figured I could get caught up on cleaning the house too. I got it all done and afterwards I watch Ghost Adventures.
Ever since I had that cheat meal a few days ago I have been craving all the bad food. BBQ chicken pizza, mashed potatoes, and mac and cheese. Ugh! I have to stay strong. The cravings will go away in a few days until then I’ll just be miserable! I have a love/hate relationship with cheat meals. I love them because I get what I want. I hate then because I gain weight and my cravings come back. Not only that but my body isn’t used to that many carbs anymore. I get physically sick, my stomach hurts and I just feel off. It’s a constant struggle but the foods I love got me to the weight I am today.
For breakfast I had a ham omelette with guacamole and hit sauce on top. 4g carbs.
For lunch I had a turkey and bacon salad with blue cheese dressing. 5g carbs.
For dinner we had chicken cordon bleu. Mine had chicken, 1/2 cup Alfredo, and ham with crushed pork rinds on top. 4g carbs.
Total carbs for the day 13g.
Total calories for the day 2020.
Under my carbs goal for the day and over 2000. Hopefully this does not make me gain tomorrow!
I drank 120oz of water today.
I can’t believe it’s already Sunday! I hate how weekends are going by so fast now. There are only three weeks until my spring classes are over and I get to walk in the graduation ceremony. It’s all happening so fast!
I did not sleep good last night. I didn’t drink enough water yesterday so I had leg cramps throughout the night. I also had nightmares all night. It was just a rough night in general. I was tired all day. At least there was no church today so I didn’t have to try and stay awake during that.
For breakfast I had scrambled eggs with guacamole. 4g carbs.
For lunch I went out to eat with my sister and best friend at an Italian restaurant. I did pretty good. I had a salad with blue cheese dressing. Also I had grilled chicken, shrimp, and roasted veggies with garlic olive oil on top. I don’t know exactly how many carbs are in this.
I decided to skip dinner because I was still full from lunch.
I don’t know exactly how many carbs I had for today but I’m pretty sure I didn’t go over.
I’m proud of myself. When we went out to eat I didn’t cheat. I didn’t eat the bread that smelled delicious and was sitting in front of me. I didn’t get pasta with my lunch. I didn’t eat dessert. I just ate my lunch and was done! I have come a long way since I started. I wanted to cheat so bad but I stopped myself. I would rather have the end result instead of the temporary satisfaction.
I have only drank 88oz so far. I am going to get to 120oz before bed so hopefully I don’t have leg cramps again.
Today is me and my husbands second anniversary! I can’t believe it’s been two years. We have been through so much together already. Marrying Travis was the best decision I have ever made. He is so supportive and caring. He is by my side through everything and my greatest support through this weight loss journey. I love him so much and I’m thankful everyday that he is my husband!
The cheat meal me and my husband had last night was a bad idea. I feel extremely bloated and my stomach hurts today. Extreme carb overload I guess. I feel like I gained 5lbs back just from dinner last night.
We spent most of the day exploring the city. We went to a huge gun store. It’s like the Walmart of guns. We also went to the mall and the Oklahoma City memorial. I feel like every Oklahoman should go see the bombing Memorial. It was an emotional moment for me. They have made it such a peaceful place. The bomb went off at 9:02 April 19th 1995. On the beginning end of the memorial they have a black wall with 9:01 and at the end another black wall with 9:03. In between the walls is a shallow pool of water that flows from one end to the other. It is beautiful and had a pretty powerful message to me. Also there are rows of empty glass and brass chairs. One for each person that died during the bombing. I will put some pictures at the bottom of this blog.
I decided to skip breakfast today. My stomach still hurt this morning from dinner last night.
For lunch we had cheese cake factory. I don’t even want to say what I had because it’s just bad,
I skipped dinner tonight since I had a big lunch.
I have enjoyed eating whatever I wanted for two days. It’s time to get back on track tomorrow. I feel like I’m going to get on the scale tomorrow and see I’ve gained all the weight I lost back.
I didn’t drink too much water today. I will have to start drinking as much as I can tomorrow again.