Day 25


Well i cheated for dinner yesterday and today. I let my emotions get the best of me. Cheating is not going to help me feel better in the long run. I know i need to stop or I’ll end up being over 400lbs again. Tomorrow I have to get back on track. I have got to get this post partum depression under control. I have to do this I just don’t know how.


Day 23 -struggling with depression.


Today started off pretty good. I woke up to feed my daughter at 2:30 this morning then she slept until 8:30 So I got some pretty decent sleep. I have been pretty down lately. Post partum depression is no joke. My doctor hasn’t suggested medicine yet which is a good thing because I’m not a huge fan of depression meds. He told me sleep when baby sleeps and get outside and walk. I tried to reach out to some friends for some support but no one texted back so I’m feeling really alone. It sucks to be going through a tough time and no one is there for you. My husband is here and supportive but he’s at work all day plus he doesn’t really understand what I’m going through. I’ll just have to figure out how to get through this without support from friends.

For exercise today me and my daughter went for a walk in the park. It was nice getting out. I walked a lot farther than I was planning on but I didn’t want to go home yet. I got 5,662 steps in so far today and I may get an extra 1,000 steps because waking with Emma in my arms puts her to sleep. I’m going to try and get out again tomorrow. I’ll post a picture of Emma during our walk below!

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a Jimmy Dean scramble. 3g carbs.

I skipped lunch.

For dinner I had baked chicken with broccoli. 9g carbs.

For a snack I had a couple Turkey hotdogs. 2g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 14g. Under my goal by 6g carbs. Not bad for the day.

I’m not too sure how much water I drank today. I know for sure 40 ounces but also drank some more but I don’t know the amount. Hopefully I made my goal.

Emma during our walk. She’s 5 weeks old!

Day 22- weigh-ins day!


Today is my first weigh-in day. I haven’t weighed myself in a week. Last Sunday I was at 354. This morning I was at 344! I lost 10lbs this week! I’m so proud of myself. This week was hard but I got through it. I know i won’t always lose this much in a week up it feels good. Only 44lbs away from my year goal. I also had a non-scale victory. I was able to fit in jeans that I wore before I was pregnant. I need to keep both of these as motivation to keep going. I feel really good today and when I cheat I just feel bad. It’s hard because I was really addicted to food because it was my comfort. I need to find other ways to find comfort, healthier ways. I remember being 432lbs 2 years ago and being absolutely miserable every single day. I never want to feel that way again.

I unintentionally fasted until 1 today. I went up to work and it took a lot longer than I expected to get stuff done. I also got more steps in than yesterday but not much. I only got 2,500 steps. I have got to get more active!

Food for the day:

I skipped breakfast.

For lunch I had a Jimmy Dean Scramble with jalapenos. 4g carbs.

For dinner I had ground beef with cheese, sour cream, and hot sauce. 7g carbs.

For a snack I had pork rind nachos. 9g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 20g. Right at my goal for the day. Not bad!

So far I’ve only drank 60 ounces today. I’m thong to drink another 20 ounces before bed to be at 8p ounces which is my goal!

Day 21-Good day!


I had a good day today. Me and my husband needed to go grocery shopping because we literally had no food in the house. I hate grocery shopping so I literally put it off until we have an empty fridge! Plus the grocery store is the biggest temptation for me. I really wanted some cheese cake because they had my favorite but I didn’t. It’s been a week since I last cheated. Me and my husband made a deal that if we don’t cheat until our anniversary (April 12th) then we could go on a really nice dinner and cheat. I know some people say don’t cheat ever but on special occasions I don’t want to worry about what I’m eating I just want to enjoy the moment. Our anniversary is over a month away so I can make some decent progress before then. Also tomorrow is weigh in day. Last Saturday I weighed 352. I can wait to see what I weigh tomorrow. I really have been working hard this week.

I actually wore my fitbit today. I thought I would get a bunch of steps from grocery shopping which I did but I was pushing the cart so they didn’t register. I only got 1,500 steps today which not anywhere close to my goal. I really have to get up more tomorrow!

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had beef jerky. I’m not sure how much i had. Im going to overestimate to be on the safe side. 16g carbs.

For lunch I had a Jimmy Dean scramble with a jalapeno and a turkey hotdog. 4g carbs.

For dinner we had pulled beef with jalapeno, cheese, and sour cream. 4g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 24g. I’m pretty sure I didn’t eat that much beef jerky but I would rather over estimate then underestimate. 4g over my goal isn’t bad!

I’ve only drank 60 ounces of water so far today. I’m going to try and get the last 20 in before I got bed. So I will make my 80 ounce goal for the day.

Day 20


Today was a pretty good day. My daughter wasn’t so fussy so I was actually able to get stuff done. I was able to pick up our bedroom, hang up all our clean clothes, do a few loads of laundry, and clean out my closet. I didn’t just want to sit on the couch and watch t.v. today. I’ve been doing that for 5 weeks and I’m not doing it any more. I’ve got 5 more weeks of maternity leave and I’m not going to do nothing that entire time.

I’m really trying to get my activity up throughout the day. I keep for forgetting to put my fitbit on in the morning so I’m just going to sleep with it on from now on. So tomorrow I will keep track of my steps. I’m going to try and get at least 7,000 a day then work my way up to 10,000.

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a Jimmy Dean scramble. 2g carbs.

For lunch I had a few Turkey hotdogs with cheese and a little bit of sugar free bbq sauce. 8g carbs.

For dinner I had apple wood smoked bacon pork loin and a few bites of broccoli. 9g carbs.

For a snack I had a few slices of ham with ranch. Later on I had a turkey hotdog and some olives. 5g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 24g. I only went over my limit by 4g. Not too bad. Weigh-in is in 2 days. I can’t wait to see if I have lost any this week.

For water today I drank 90 ounces of water today which is 10 ounces over my goal!

Day 19- New motivation


I haven’t blogged in a few days because I have barely slept and have constantly been busy. It’s like every time I pick up my phone to start it my daughter starts crying. It’s been a rough few days. I’m pretty sure she is colic. She was up all night last night and she has been up all day today. I’m one exhausted mom.

With all that being said I’m still on track. I haven’t cheated in awhile which I’m happy about. I’m not letting the stress drive me to eat. It hit me the other day that no one else but me can help me lose weight. I’ve been so worried about having support to get back on track but it comes down to I have to it myself because someone won’t always be there for me. I need to do this for me and for my daughter. I want to be a good example for her growing up. But since I have been on track I can’t wait to see how much i weigh on Sunday. My goal is 56lbs to get to 300. I was down go 317 before I got pregnant so right now I’m just losing what I gained during my pregnancy. If I can just get under 300 this year I will be so happy. This is new motivation for this year.

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a Jimmy Dean scramble with fresh jalapenos. 4g carbs.

For lunch I had a couple Turkey hotdogs. 7g carbs.

For dinner I had pork chops with sugar free bbq sauce. 4g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 16g carbs. Under my goal by 4g.

As for water so far I have only drank 30 ounces. I am going to drink another 30 ounces before bed so I’ll be at 60 for the day. That’s still 20 ounces under my goal but not bad.

Day 17


Today was a good day. My husband was off today so he took the midnight feeding with our daughter last night so I got a couple extra hours of sleep. I definitely needed it. I also had a doctors appointment to check my c section incision and everything is healing nicely I had to go spend a couple hours at work getting everything ready for my class next week. I don’t miss work at all and I’m not looking forward to gong back. I love being with my daughter everyday and I’m worried I’m going to miss a lot going back to work. I really don’t have a choice.

So I had planned on tracking my steps today but I plugged in my fitbit last night but I didn’t see that the charger wasn’t plugged in. So it wasn’t charging all night. I did get up and walk a bit more than usual today. I just plugged in my fitbit and it is charging so I will try and get my steps in tomorrow.

Food for the day:

For breakfast I have summer sausage with cheese. 7g carbs.

For lunch I had a couple string cheeses. 4g carbs.

For dinner I had buffalo wings. 7g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 18g. Under my daily goal by 2g. I’m proud of myself. I’m staying on track and not giving up.

Today I drank 60 ounces of water. I’m working on a 30 ounce bottle of water so if I finish this I will be at 90 ounces for the day and over my daily goal by 10!