So my daughter is now 4 months old. I love being a mom and watching her grow. I have also been dealing with post partum depression which I dealt with by eating my feelings. I have gained 70 of the 100lbs I lost back. I’m not proud of it. Now that I’m finally on the right medicine to help me deal with my depression and I’m feeling a lot better I can finally focus on my physical health. I’m not happy where I am at I could easily get back to where I was. My clothes are already getting tighter and my body changing back. So I really need to get back to the low carb lifestyle.
I’m now on summer break so I will have a lot more time to focus on what I’m eating and be able to go to the gym and exercise more. It will be a little more difficult with making plans for the baby but I have to figure it out. Today it kind of hit me that Emma will grow up seeing the choices I make. I grew up constantly eating junk food and cheap fast food so I guess that’s my comfort zone. I dont want Emma to grow up eating only junk food. I dont want her to grow up being overweight like I did. I was made fun of so much as a kid and sadly as an adult I still get made fun of by other adults. I hate it so much. I already dont like where my body is at but people laughing and make fun of me just makes me feel worse. I have to do this for myself, my daughter and my husband. We need to be a healthier family. I will post a picture of my beautiful daughter below!
Since I am on summer break I figure my first goal would be to lose 30lbs before the end of Summer Vacation. I dont know the exact date because we dont have next school years calendar yet but it will anywhere between August 17th-24th. That gives me at least 77 days. I’m going to try my hardest to meet this goal! I honestly have no idea what my exact weight it. I’ve been avoiding the scale so tomorrow I will face it and know it’s a starting point and I will get back to where I was!
I will be doing daily blogging again with how my day was, what I eat, my carb count, and how much water I drink. It keeps me more accountable if I post it here. I’ve made it through 100lbs before and I can do it again.