Day 2- Getting over cravings


Today was tough. I wasn’t able to get out of the house because it was too cold to get the baby out. Being home all day is so tempting. All I want to do is eat. I really have no energy to get up and clean or anything. I may just be lazy but I get bored watching tv so I just want to eat. I know it’s because I cheated a few days ago so my cravings came back. I just have to get through this part and the cravings will go away. I did go over my carbs today but not as bad as it could have been.

I barely got off the couch today. I know I need to be up and moving around but I just don’t have the energy. I just need to make myself get up and do stuff because on the days where I go out and walk the track I feel fine but days like today I just don’t want to get up.

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a couple Turkey hotdogs and a Jimmy Dean scramble. 3g carbs.

For lunch I had sliced ham and string cheese with ranch. 14g carbs.

For dinner I had buffalo chicken wings. 7g carbs.

For a snack I had a few more turkey hotdogs. 2g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 26g. Only 6g over my goal. So overall not a bad day. I really wanted to cheat but I’m glad I didn’t. I know these cravings will go away in time. I just need to hang in there until they do.


Day 1 (again)


It’s not how many times you start over it but the fact that you are still trying that really counts. So yes, I’m starting over at day 1 again. I sat down this morning and set out goals for the next year. Trying to just lose weight without goals has been tough because there nothing to work toward. I met my first big goal which was lose 100lbs in a year. I was so proud of myself. I know i won’t be able to lose that much in a year again because im not as big as I was the first time. So my big goal for the next year will be to lose 70lbs. Today’s weight was 347 so my goal weight for the year will be 277. I have not been in the 200’s since middle school. So that’s a big deal for me. I feel like I can do it. That’s roughly 6lbs a month which is completely doable. I’m excited to get started. I can’t wait to see where I am in a year!

As for small goals my first one will be to lose 2lbs this week. Then 6lbs this month. I may go over that because I’m starting back on the low carb diet but it’s still something to work towards. I won’t be weighing myself daily anymore it just gets me too discouraged so I will be doing weekly weigh-ins. I will post on Sundays how much i have lost during the week and then monthly weigh-ins on the first of every month!

For exercise, I still haven’t been cleared by my doctor to go to the gym yet. He might next week after my check up. Until then I’m going to walk around the track at the park as much as I can. I went today it is a little over 2 miles it is not too cold to get baby out tomorrow I’m going to go again. Going to the gym maybe a struggle during the week because I will have no one to watch Emma but I can take her on her stroller to the park and she sleeps through the entire walk. So for now this is good.

Food for the day:

I skipped breakfast and didn’t eat until around 2.

For lunch I had a grilled chicken salad with blue cheese dressing. 16g carbs.

For dinner I had chicken thighs with lemon pepper seasoning. 0g carbs.

For a snack I had 1 Turkey hot dogs. 2g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 18g. Under my goal by 2g. Good start!

Day 30- a month in


Well I’m a month in and I’ve made no progress. I’ve been trying but dealing with a new born, feeling depressed, and being home constantly has been s struggle. I need to make goals and use this time that I am home to get some exercise. All I can do right now is walk but I can go walk to track with Emma in her stroller. I need to set goals that’s what got me through the first 100lbs was short and long term goals. I will have them set tomorrow and post them here. I keep saying I need to get back on track but after seeing my weight this morning I really need to. I know it will be easier once I go back to work since I won’t be home to snack constantly. I have 3 weeks of maternity leave left so I will just have to do my best until then.

I did get back on track today. I fasted until almost 2 today. I think I’m at least going to fast until noon everyday. I feel pretty good. I did want to snack a lot today but I decided to get up and clean instead. I got my office cleaned up a little bit and did some laundry. I didn’t get as much done as I wanted because my daughter didn’t want to sleep very much today. So I just got done what I could.

Food for the day:

I skipped breakfast.

For lunch I had 2 Turkey hotdogs, broccoli, and a string cheese. 19g carbs.

For dinner I had steak with hot sauce. 0g carbs.

For a snack I had a Jimmy Dean scramble. 2g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 21g. Only over my goal by 1g. Not bad for today.

Day 26


I feel pretty good today. I feel really bad that I cheated the past 2 days but I can’t change that. I can only move forward. I read an article online yesterday about a man that was only 2 years older than me and pretty close to my weight having a heart attack and passing away. It was really a slap in the face that I need to get on track and stay there. I am not at a healthy weight. Yes I lost 100lbs but I still have a long way to go before I get to where I need to be.

Eating was kind of a struggle today. My daughter was crying constantly today. She would not go to sleep at all so she was overly tired. I just wanted to stress eat because i was stressed. I also had to go pick up fast food for my husband because he is sick and didn’t want what I cooked for dinner. I was tempted to get something but I didn’t.

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a Jimmy Dean scramble. 2g carbs.

For lunch I had ham and cheese roll ups with jalapenos. 6g carbs.

For dinner I had chicken and broccoli. 12g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 20g. Right at my goal for the day.

I know i didn’t drink enough water today. Tomorrow I will drink more.

Day 25


Well i cheated for dinner yesterday and today. I let my emotions get the best of me. Cheating is not going to help me feel better in the long run. I know i need to stop or I’ll end up being over 400lbs again. Tomorrow I have to get back on track. I have got to get this post partum depression under control. I have to do this I just don’t know how.

Day 23 -struggling with depression.


Today started off pretty good. I woke up to feed my daughter at 2:30 this morning then she slept until 8:30 So I got some pretty decent sleep. I have been pretty down lately. Post partum depression is no joke. My doctor hasn’t suggested medicine yet which is a good thing because I’m not a huge fan of depression meds. He told me sleep when baby sleeps and get outside and walk. I tried to reach out to some friends for some support but no one texted back so I’m feeling really alone. It sucks to be going through a tough time and no one is there for you. My husband is here and supportive but he’s at work all day plus he doesn’t really understand what I’m going through. I’ll just have to figure out how to get through this without support from friends.

For exercise today me and my daughter went for a walk in the park. It was nice getting out. I walked a lot farther than I was planning on but I didn’t want to go home yet. I got 5,662 steps in so far today and I may get an extra 1,000 steps because waking with Emma in my arms puts her to sleep. I’m going to try and get out again tomorrow. I’ll post a picture of Emma during our walk below!

Food for the day:

For breakfast I had a Jimmy Dean scramble. 3g carbs.

I skipped lunch.

For dinner I had baked chicken with broccoli. 9g carbs.

For a snack I had a couple Turkey hotdogs. 2g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 14g. Under my goal by 6g carbs. Not bad for the day.

I’m not too sure how much water I drank today. I know for sure 40 ounces but also drank some more but I don’t know the amount. Hopefully I made my goal.

Emma during our walk. She’s 5 weeks old!

Day 22- weigh-ins day!


Today is my first weigh-in day. I haven’t weighed myself in a week. Last Sunday I was at 354. This morning I was at 344! I lost 10lbs this week! I’m so proud of myself. This week was hard but I got through it. I know i won’t always lose this much in a week up it feels good. Only 44lbs away from my year goal. I also had a non-scale victory. I was able to fit in jeans that I wore before I was pregnant. I need to keep both of these as motivation to keep going. I feel really good today and when I cheat I just feel bad. It’s hard because I was really addicted to food because it was my comfort. I need to find other ways to find comfort, healthier ways. I remember being 432lbs 2 years ago and being absolutely miserable every single day. I never want to feel that way again.

I unintentionally fasted until 1 today. I went up to work and it took a lot longer than I expected to get stuff done. I also got more steps in than yesterday but not much. I only got 2,500 steps. I have got to get more active!

Food for the day:

I skipped breakfast.

For lunch I had a Jimmy Dean Scramble with jalapenos. 4g carbs.

For dinner I had ground beef with cheese, sour cream, and hot sauce. 7g carbs.

For a snack I had pork rind nachos. 9g carbs.

Total carbs for the day 20g. Right at my goal for the day. Not bad!

So far I’ve only drank 60 ounces today. I’m thong to drink another 20 ounces before bed to be at 8p ounces which is my goal!